or maybe, gremlins came in and added 15 lbs to my body when I wasn't looking. I seriously don't think I actually gained all this extra weight! Either all my clothes were shrunk or those darn gremlins snuck into my home over the winter.
The most pathetic thing is that very few of my summer work clothes fit. I am very minimalistic with my clothes so it's not a good thing when only 3 of your 6 work pants/capris fit. I have alerted the girls at work that they will be seeing me in the same bottoms for a while until I decide to either lose the weight (that would involve exercise) or I can buy a few more.
This winter I noticed that a few of my clothes were getting tighter, but I think they were being stretched slowly as I added the weight. My summer clothes haven't had the advantage of being slowly stretched so they are too small. The saddest part of this whole ordeal is that I hate to go shopping. Yup, you heard me right. When I do grace stores with my presence, it's not a pretty sight. I grab whatever I wish I could wear and then try them in on. Sometimes I get lucky but many times I don't. The problem is that I have the body I wished I had when I was in high school. HUH? I am only 5' 3" and until I got pregnant with Paige at age 28- I weighted at the most 100 lbs--DON'T STOP READING! I hated how I looked. I had reverse body image problems. To me I was stick and bones. No chest, no hips, no butt. I hated looking at myself in any clothes or naked. I wanted to have curves and look like a woman.
Now ten years and two kids later, I do. But I can't figure out how to buy clothes. My whole life was spent trying to find clothes that weren't too big and baggy. Too bad I didn't have access to all the wonderful stores that we shop for my daughter. So I am confused when I go into stores. I was always used to going to the Junior department but they are cut for the body I had pre-kids. But the options seem cuter than when I go into the women's section. Or do I just face facts that I am a woman now. Most of the time I stay out of the department stores and just shop at specialty stores like Banana Republic.
I really do love how I look now. I feel like a woman instead of a tomboy. Though, I do think I need to take off a few pounds as my stomach is getting very "pregnant-like". If I could just take off a few inches there but keep the hips and butt I would be thrilled. Again, my husband says to exercise--that dirty word! If I wouldn't keep such a limited choice of clothes then it would be possible to have clothes in bigger and smaller sizes to choose from.
On another note, last night I checked my facebook page and my 16 year old nephew friended me. It just made me feel old.