Happy 12th Birthday Paigie!

Today is my Paigie's 12th birthday. I can't believe my little jaundiced fat baby of 12 years ago is already close to being a teenager. She is becoming so much more of a young woman as you can see in this picture from our vacation. And by woman I mean she is not only physically changing but also her attitude. Lord Please send her a patient husband!! Last night she laid out all that she expected from us from her breakfast (2 dippy eggs and toast that must be delivered by 7:10 am) to her lunch which must be delivered to the school (Subway - order too complicated to fit in this blog!) by 12:30pm. I am getting her out of school early today so I am sure by then she will have her dinner and evening plans ready for us. She sure is tough cookie- but she is an unbelievable child. I am trying to learn to overlook her "determined nature" and look at the most beautiful and intelligent little girl I know!! Happy Birthday my little princess! Daddy and I hope all your wishes come true -- I know we're trying haha!

Did I forget how busy the fall is?

I'm taking a break from cleaning my office. Yes, I just did a major cleaning not that long ago and boy did the cleaning fairies forget to keep up with this room. It could also be that my son decided to clean out his room of everything spiderman and dump it all in here!! You couldn't even walk into this room. It truly looked like a scene from Hoarders. That's what my family has been calling it all week long- the Hoarder room.

Besides wasting time on the internet, I'm thinking about how busy my weekends are in the fall. I thought summer was busy, and really my fall weekends are worse. Jeff usually has a cross country meet every Saturday and he leaves at 6 am and comes back around 3pm or so. Paige has a football game to cheer for and had Jeffrey Michael not quit football, I would be sitting at his game watching him and then staying for the olders kids game for Paige to cheer. Then we have church and usually a birthday party squeezed in there as well. It's no wonder I don't feel like I get a break.

Well, right now I am. I have about 40 mins before picking Paige up from a sleepover and I'm gonna waste time on the computer (in between loads of laundry!!). Hope your weekend is more relaxing than mine!!

I forgot how to post

Yes, I haven't been around and so when I decided to post just now I looked at blogger in confusion!

A lot has happened, I turned 40, we took a family cruise to the Caribbean, my son was tormented by another child on his football team and I think I'm going through midlife crisis. You know, the usual life stuff.

One thing though that I have realized this past month is that after 23 years with my husband (dating and marriage inclusive because hey he's the only man I've been with!) I still love him fiercely. It's not the same kind of love I had for him in my teens and 20's. It's more/less/stronger/fonder/intimate. I'm guessing that it will change as we change in the next 23 years (and more I hope!). It's been amazing to watch him grow as a man/father/husband. My love has grown with him as I watched his transformation and I love who he has become. He tells me how much he loves me and is attracted to me even after all these years (and babies).

To think that at one time in my life I never wanted to get married let alone have children. I'm glad he showed me that I could be a good wife and mother despite my own upbringing. My fear almost cost me the joy of him and the kids and I can't imagine my life without them.

So Jeff, I hope that someday you will realize how truly happy I am with you. I love you more than imaginable or describable. Even when things get crazy- like now with you coaching cross country- ignore my complaining. You know it's in my nature to be pessimistic and miserable but under it all I love you and all your bad habits and I hope you feel the same about me!